“I have learned to respect my body”

For most of his life, Jordan Dupuis has had a toxic relationship with food.

Suffering from hyperphagia, he could eat impressive amounts of unwanted food to the point of making him ill.

After several surgeries and two years of therapy, the 36-year-old columnist wants to educate young people about the risks of eating disorders.

“It took me years to figure out what was going on, when it would basically be easier to ask for help,” says Montreal, who went from 5 335 to 6 156 in nine years. . If my story can help even a boy overcome his eating disorder, I have done a good job. »

For more than 20 years, Jordan believed that his overweight was the result of a lack of willpower and insatiable greed, when in fact he was suffering from periods of bulimia and overeating, a mental health disorder consisting of eating excessive from incentives.

In secret

At a very young age, Jordan Dupuis began forcibly consuming “forbidden” foods.


Jordan Dupuis in 2007, on the CISM microphone.  At the time, he weighed 300 pounds.

Photo courtesy, Stacy Ann Murray

Jordan Dupuis in 2007, on the CISM microphone. At the time, he weighed 300 pounds.

“At the age of eight, I ate biscuit dough from the fridge or went to buy myself a fried potato that was invisible and unknown. I lived it secretly, just like homosexuality, because I felt I was different from other boys. She was associated with something “bad”. Every pound I gained became an extra layer of protection. »

By the age of 11, Jordan was already chubby. His classmates made fun of him, to the point that he refused to go to school. At the suggestion of a pediatrician, a friend of his parents, Jordan underwent liposuction on his torso.

Eat and eat again

The situation degenerated when Jordan Dupuis received his driver’s license and his first student job, at the age of 16 years.

“I can go to fast food at any time. I could fill myself up without leaving a trace. »

Within a day, Jordan was able to eat a two-egg bacon lunch at the mall where he worked. On his vacation, he got chocolate milk and a bar of chocolate. For dinner, he tossed a wolf a poutine, then a few hours later, a chip. At home, he ate dinner with his family before eating a hamburger as a trio.

“There was always a good reason to eat,” he says. Sometimes I ate until I threw up. No noise passed that of overeating to the point that I could not speak. I was frozen. I felt good, but that feeling did not last long. An hour later, I felt guilty and disgusted with myself. I promised myself to lose weight. »

During this period, the many diets he undertook all failed.

Aesthetic surgeries

At the end of high school, Jordan revealed his homosexuality to people close to him. He left his hometown of Saint-Jean-sur-Richelieu to move to Montreal to study communication and start over.

A rabies lover, the young man who weighed 250 kilograms at the time was quickly confronted with the cult of fashionable athletic body in the gay community.

“The relative level was zero. I either did not punch or pull only the guys I really liked when I hated that image of myself. For a long time I had a detached sexuality, where I completely hid for the pleasure of the other. »

The low esteem he had for him was eventually hidden in his character. “I was badly hurt. I prefer to bite than to bite. I was fed up with conflicts making life difficult for those who seemed happy. My life was more …, so I created it. »

In his early twenties, Jordan underwent a mastectomy and abdominal lipsectomy to remove a large amount of fat. “The operation helped me immediately regain some masculinity, but it did not solve the eating disorders. »

Relapse

Jordan quickly regained the weight he had lost, so at the age of 27 he weighed 335 kilograms with a 46-inch waist. It was at this point that he decided to remove part of his stomach. “Surprisingly, no one asked me if my overweight was caused by eating disorders. “I was always treated as if it was a lack of will,” he said.

This operation had the effect of reducing the amount of food he could eat. On the other hand, still in controlling eating disorders, he preferred less nutritious foods. Surprisingly, various health issues emerged such as high blood pressure, anemia and liver stones.

Light at the end of the tunnel

In 2012, Jordan felt it was over until Stéphanie Léonard, a psychologist specializing in eating disorders, appeared on the set of a television show about which he was a researcher.

“I knew myself in his words. After recording, she came to me and we started talking. He quickly realized that I was suffering from eating disorders and invited me to come and consult him. »

In addition to his individual meetings with the psychologist, Jordan attended weekly meetings for two years with Anexorie et bulimie Québec (ANEB), an organization of which he is now ambassador.

“In the form of group discussions or seminars, we learn to review our relationship with food and our body image. We also dispel some myths about nutrition and diets. »

He claims to have felt better about himself for about three years.

“I lost the notion of guilt in the face of certain foods. I eat what I want and when I want without feeling bad, which has the effect of making me feel less hungry than before. “That’s how I learned to choose foods not for the quantity, but for their taste”, says the man who cooks the food the most.

Coincidentally, Jordan gradually regained a healthy weight.

Although Jordan’s relationship with his body image remains complex, he no longer feels disgust for himself.

“My body took me somewhere. I made him suffer a lot, but now I have learned to respect him. This ordeal has allowed me to gain greater self-confidence and I am proud of the human being I have become. »

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